❄️Summer Kaptilo🔥

Aaaa, it’s been a while since I wrote a journal entry. Mostly because I just hadn’t decided how I wanted it to look for some time! But I got some inspiration from some other sites, and now here we are! My journal for 2024… even tho there’s only a few months left but shhh?

So, what’s happened since I was last here? A bit I suppose! I turned 33 last month which was… waaaaaa lmfao.
I’ve been very busy with business stuff. I now officially have business cards, and I got my first lot of art prints that I need to try and sell Sweat Drop Bear Emoji
Fandom wise I’ve been trying to get through a backlog of fanfic I’ve finished but just not posted! It’s going pretty well, I’m almost completely caught up (ignoring another couple of oneshots I finished but shh). Also going be working at dismantling the “short fics” tag and reposting everything under series that suit them.
I’m debating dropping cash to get Sonic X Shadow Generations, because hhnnnggg Shadow! I’m also looking at the Clock Tower Remaster & the Soul Reaver Remaster! I’m actually excited for video games which I don’t feel like has happened for a while! It’s nice.

But yeah. Idk how often I’ll update this. I’m probably gonna go and reupload my entries from 2023 too, using this layout as a template. I think that’s how I’m gonna go it, but just change the aesthetics and colours between years Smiling Bear Emoji
That’s about it for now! Now to post over my old 2024 entries and look into my 2023 entires lol.

I’m currently going through a bad breakout in my angiodema and I’m just… so tired of it, y’know?

I’ve spent the majority of the day with pretty much the entire bottom half of my face swollen. Lips, cheeks, everything except one very small patch on my bottom lip.
It feels like it’s mostly starting to clear up a bit now (I can tell because when it first goes up, the area is really hard, and when it’s starting to clear it’ll start to get soft).
Except that patch on my bottom lip that didn’t swell previously is now starting to swell. So… Fucking great.

Idk why I’m writing this, I’m just kinda fed up, y’know? Because for a long time it felt like it was getting better. My breakouts weren’t so frequent, and they weren’t as bad, but this has been going for at least 24 hours now, and a part of my lip is still swelling.
I’m just thankful I’ve had nowhere to go today, but as I start to delve into self employment it’s annoying that this could potentially happen on a day where I have an important meeting.

I might possibly go back to the doctors, just to see if I need to up my antihistamines, but damn. I’m so fed up of this.
~~Resisting the urge to project super hard and push this issue onto Kuai Liang and write him having to deal with it.~~

Figured it was time to make a small life update!

Things are going well I think. I’ve been doing a lot in terms of self employment and I have some pretty exciting stuff coming up with that. I don’t wanna go too much into it right now but hopefully soon I’ll be able to talk about it winking Bear Emoji

Other than that I’ve mostly been keeping myself busy. I’ve been focusing on the site a lot lately, but I think that should probably go into my creative log rather than here.
I do need to book for a medication review but that’s honestly about it? Life’s actually pretty good right now Smiling Bear Emoji
I think I need to get out more, maybe, but hopefully when I start getting into the swing of self employment I might be able to do that. Haha.

We will see how things go Heart Emoji

I’m going to be on a social media detox for a couple of days because I’m feeling some stuff and I wanna make sure it’s like… actually how I’m feeling and not just how I’m feeling because I’m having a depressive episode.

Truth is, I’m not entirely sure how I feel about the MK fandom right now? I don’t really know how I feel about my place in it either.
I dunno. I just feel… Disconnected from it at the moment. Like I still like the franchise and making content around it, I just feel a strange dissonance between myself and the wider fandom.
It’s not really anything anyone has done, like there’s no single thing that I can point to and go “this! This is why I’m not feeling the fandom right now!” I just sort of am, and it’s no ones fault.
Which is why I feel so weird about it all. It’s no one’s fault, so what exactly is the issue?

Idk. I just kind of want to do my own thing, in my own corner. Just sort of scuttle out of my cave every now and then to drop new fanfic, and then return to a life of solitude.
I think maybe the detox will do me good. It’ll help me get more perspective and figure out where I wanna go from here.

In other news, WOW THE NEW MK1 SKINS ARE UGLY HOLY SHIT! And the discovery that they seem to have for some reason put Havik’s seasonal skins in Mileena’s season is like???? Huh???? What the fuck is going on guys holy shit.
I haven’t touched the game since it came out tbh so it means very little to me.
I can’t believe we went from the Sub Zero season skins, which have some of the most beautiful skins the series has ever had (KUAI LIANG’S ESPECIALLY LIKE GOD IF I HAD A DICK IT’D BE SO FUCKING HARD!) to whatever the fuck is going on with this mess!
I just wanted a pink Kuai Liang skin NRS Frowning Bear Emoji Can I not even get that?

Ah well. We’ll see how my detox goes and I’ll touch base later Smiling Bear Emoji

Oof. Well, here is a hell of a way to start off this new journal Sweat Drop Bear Emoji

This morning I went out, and it was a nice time. We went to a vintage/antique shop with a coffee shop in it, and it was nice. Saw some cool stuff. I kinda want to go back to buy some stamps at some point Smiling Bear Emoji I didn’t buy anything today.

And then this afternoon my mum had a seizure. So… Yeah it kinda went downhill quickly.
I don’t wanna talk about this too much, but she is okay now (or as okay as she can be).
But… Yeah… Hell of a day to start trying to keep a diary again lol.

Anyway, let’s hope I can actually keep this up. I’m hoping that keeping this relatively simple will help. Maybe? We’ll see lol.

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